It could be...it might be...HOLY COW!

Life, like women and various other things in it, is confusing. You think you have it figured out, and it go from throwing 98 mph fastballs, to that devastating Trevor Hoffman 78 mph change up. Then it comes back with that 92 mph biting back door 2-seam fastball that you watch the whole way SWEARING it's going to be a ball, and all you can do is step back for a second and smile and marvel at how well life knows what to give you every step of the way.

Sometimes you get that fastball you've been waiting for but you don't get a lot of it and you just slap a single to left field. It's may not be what you wanted, but you still go something, and other people supporting you can help you get where you want to go. Or maybe it's a bloop single that the gold glove outfielder almost caught, but it still dropped for that much needed base hit. That sounds like my spring semester at Purdue. It still wasn't great, and wasn't exactly what I wanted, and for a while looked like it was going to be too little too late, but it came out okay and I got things started.

Other times you'll get handed that first base, and since you like to work for what you earn, you feel guilty taking it, but at the same time you accept that you need to capitalize on the things that you are given by life. This sounds like part of my love for Miss Cassandra Lynn. I still don't feel like I have done anything to deserve being with her, and I your toes because sometimes life will throw that perfect 12-6 75 mph curveball that you can't even touch and it just makes you look silly. And you figure that if you can't hit that, why bother even trying anymore? But that curveball has had its fun with you, and now its out of your way, no longer holding you back from what you need to do, and what you want to do. Even if it comes around again, you know how to just watch it go by again, even if it's a perfect corner strike sometimes, because you know it's no good for you.

And finally, there are those times when life will give you something, and it won't just hand you the whole thing. It will make you work for it, just to see if you have the strength and courage to go after what you want, need and deserve. Which brings me back to my Cassie. I'm not going to be cheesy and lame and say it was like the stars aligned for me or any of that. But when I saw her that first night, dancing with her friends, the music faded away, the people seemed to all stop talking, and I knew all I wanted was to share that night with her. I wanted that moment to be special, to last in my memory for a lifetime. And I was so caught up in that moment, that one shot...that I forgot the bases were loaded. And wouldn't you know it, life gave me a hanging curveball right in my wheelhouse and I sweet stroked that ball over the Ivy, past Waveland Ave, and it still hasn't come down. And all I can hope is that it never does, and that I can make this 360 foot walk turn into a lifetime, because even though a lifetime also ends, I couldn't ask for more time than the rest of what I have with the woman I love the most. And even when I do round third and head for home, when I lift my head, I have every faith that she'll be there, waiting to greet me when I come home.


Quotes And Thoughts For The Day:

“Never let the fear of striking you out keep you from playing the game” ~ Babe Ruth

“Things are shaping up to be pretty odd
Little deaths in musical beds
So it seems I'm someone I've never met

You will only hear these elegant crimes
Fall on your ears from criminal dimes
They spill unfound from a pretty mouth

And everybody gets there, everybody gets their
And everybody gets their way
I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her
Now I'm the only one to blame

Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say
Things have changed for me, and that's okay…

I want to go where everyone goes
I want to know what everyone knows
I want to go where everyone feels the same

I never said I'd leave the city
I never said I'd leave this town
A falling out we won't tiptoe about

And everybody gets there and everybody gets their
And everybody gets their way
I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her
Now I'm the only one to blame

Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say
Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I feel the same, and I say

Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I feel the same, and I say
[X2]

Oh… Well, things have changed for me
Come on everybody let's dance and sing
I'm singin' it all night long
Come on everybody and join along…! I'm sayin’…
Well things have changed for me
Come on everybody let's dance and sing
I'm singin' it all night long
Come on everybody and sing along…

Things have changed for me
And that's okay…!
I'm on my way, and I say

Things have changed for me…”

~ That Green Gentleman – Panic! at the Disco